ayúdeme por favor.

God.
please give me the words to speak today. please give me peace to do this. i'm tired of playing this stupid game. thinking of other ways to do this and none seem to make me feel more comfortable. as i thought yesterday i hurt even more and as i thought of this i knew it was right and almost couldn't wait to do this. knowing everything would be in the open and there would be no fooling around anymore. but as i wait to have this conversation it seems to frighten me more. why. i do not know. i don't fear things. i'm asking You now to grant Your grace on me one more time. please give me Your words to speak. let this be what You want. God will this make us trust each other more. will we grow to a different understanding of each other and You. God i'm starting to panic. please watch over me today. if this is not Your will then let it stop before it happens. i'm so nervous. why i never have a problem talking about anything else. i'm being such a girl.
help me today. please.
in Your amazing name...