14 September, 2006

deep in thought of my feelings.

sgfbngfhds
well that's from someone that i absolutely adore that is sitting here with me right now. it's been a fun night. i worked this morning and that was ok but it was just a little frustrating. my mind seems to not be here nor is my heart it is somewhere else and i'm feeling awful about that. wishing that i could have different words to say and things to do but i don't. i'm wishing that this would come already so that i can have these butterflies dissappear. i'm hoping that everything will go well. all i can do is trust in my Lord that everything will be done in His will. i've been praying and feel ok but i'm still so very nervous. i'm definitely not confident whatsoever. but totally looking forward to it. i had an awesome night though. my mind was in other places but yes i enjoyed myself. ryan and i got my plane ticket to go see mi papi and then we went to chili's to see my amazing friend kyle. we used to play ball together way back in the day when we were cool kids. we were first every season. just cause of kyle and i. haha. what fun. and then ryan and i hung out. oh what fun. it makes me smile. yay.
i'm hoping he'll call tomorrow. i highly doubt it. but i'm sitll hoping.
oh those butterflies...

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

are you crushin on the RyGuy?