ay. no mas.

not knowing where to turn right now. well besides for God obviously. my foot is broken. my heart is shattered. the wall is waiting yet i'm trying to hold back. why. i don't understand. it sits there everyday in that same spot waiting for me to fail once again. all i have to do is stay away. yet for some reason i seem to not be able to. work is just overwhelming. not because of the work itself. only due to the fact that i work with some jerks. it just kind of sucks. but whatever right. there must be a reasoning for it. i'm struggling to stay sane right now and i hate that. i'm hating that the only time i feel like writing is when i'm upset. or when i do feel like writing when i'm happy i don't feel like sitting here. i'm hating that they are not replying. it hurts. i can't do anymore.