i'm holding everything i have in me not to punch. it is making just want to scream out. there are some many things that i want to say because i know that they'll make him hurt and that's all that i want him to feel. how stupid can someone be. ugh. this is driving me insane. i'm trying to not to shed that one tear that just keeps coming. i have to run away from it. i feel no fear or not one bit of love nor like. everyone is terrified. i wish that it would just happen one more time to me and that it would end it all... for good. i get physically ill. all i can hear is that voice that just gets me so angry. or even just seeing that truck. ugh. i've been having no emotions since friday night except for the anger that is built up inside me and it keeps building. i want to so badly take my fist and show... ugh. last night for a few moments i had forgotten it all. and it made me feel good. it was with my bestfriend and her amazing boyfriend. how good it felt to know that everything is the way it should be there. there is that voice. it's my key to go.
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