ask me to stay...

1/2 upset. 1/2 can't wait for today. a friend asked me not to long ago what gets me out of bed in the morning. of course me not waiting to answer it said i'm happy for the next day to come and said that i would get back to him on it. i think i have finally finished my answer. the thing that gets me out of bed in the morning is not knowing what will happen that day and what God has in store for me. to see how He uses me that day. and once again as i screw up all day long and He still somehow loves me and shows His mercy on me and forgives me. there are 1440 minutes in a day. there are 86400 seconds in a day. and as i awake and my toe touches the floor i know and seem to realize once again how much of the day that i've already wasted. wishing that i had gotten more done and wishing that i won't waste the rest of the day. some times things seem so perfect and that they should just happen. it's as if they go. and there should be no questioning of them. but then you realize 'reality' and you know that that is not right but you agree with the 'reality' but some of you still wishes that so perfections would happen. i work togo today. i'm not quite sure that i want to. i don't feel comfortable there unless it is my normal shift because i don't know how busy it gets and i do not know what to expect. ¿bebía usted? ¿por qué dirí­a usted o pensarí­a aún eso? a friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you've forgotten the words...