beautiful...

i'm completely drained. i have nothing left i feel. i want this all to end. i know it won't be long but i feel it's to long. beautiful. i call a lot of people beautiful as many have realized. it's for my own reasons. you can ask me personally if you really want to know. well apparently i'm not beautiful. that was definitely what really stabbed me in the heart. how can you say that. i just don't comprehend. i've been pushed around for to long and i'm trying to rebuild myself and take care of myself and that's not helping. i'm hurting a lot. once again. go figure. but i'm putting an end to this all soon enough. finally. right now i just want to see two people. they should know who they are. i just saw them a few hours ago but am missing them incredibly. i can't write any more. i'm trying. maybe later.