now the actual post.
i wore my quicksilver 'sweater' today with my scarf. which i have yet to remove. my hands are cold yet this scarf is actually starting to make the rest of me hot. yet for some reason i've refused to remove it.
i'm falling into the oblivion of something that even i'm not quite sure i know what exactly it is. i would really like to. but yet it's actually quite impossible. for the time being. maybe soon enough.
hopefully.
it's to the point where the indecisiveness has kicked in to the effect that someone is stepping up and taking the leadership. which i'm glad.
yet what?
yeah...
my body has become this tense overloaded stressed out stiffness of pain. my shoulders may as well have a torn rotator cuff again. maybe that's what the one is. that's how it feels. maybe i should go see taegal. eh. but everything i've been trying is not relieving. the one thing i know is that adrenaline flow. that i must continue to say no. but ugh...
yeah...
as i look at it. does it even matter.
ah what is going on?
what was that phone call all about yesterday?
where did that come from?
how do you not know all of this?
i should have told you... yet i know i didn't...
do i regret it? no. well to a degree but not in a bad sense. in the sense that it's become to much a part of me and now i don't know how to handle that. because if you don't remember i'm not good at anything and i will never amount to anything yet that's what has made me something that they've changed what they said.
but still that voice on the other line.
i still don't get it.
you were the one saying those immature things that should have never been stated yet... ugh.
six. come already. please.
p.s. i love you
i wore my quicksilver 'sweater' today with my scarf. which i have yet to remove. my hands are cold yet this scarf is actually starting to make the rest of me hot. yet for some reason i've refused to remove it.
i'm falling into the oblivion of something that even i'm not quite sure i know what exactly it is. i would really like to. but yet it's actually quite impossible. for the time being. maybe soon enough.
hopefully.
it's to the point where the indecisiveness has kicked in to the effect that someone is stepping up and taking the leadership. which i'm glad.
yet what?
yeah...
my body has become this tense overloaded stressed out stiffness of pain. my shoulders may as well have a torn rotator cuff again. maybe that's what the one is. that's how it feels. maybe i should go see taegal. eh. but everything i've been trying is not relieving. the one thing i know is that adrenaline flow. that i must continue to say no. but ugh...
yeah...
as i look at it. does it even matter.
ah what is going on?
what was that phone call all about yesterday?
where did that come from?
how do you not know all of this?
i should have told you... yet i know i didn't...
do i regret it? no. well to a degree but not in a bad sense. in the sense that it's become to much a part of me and now i don't know how to handle that. because if you don't remember i'm not good at anything and i will never amount to anything yet that's what has made me something that they've changed what they said.
but still that voice on the other line.
i still don't get it.
you were the one saying those immature things that should have never been stated yet... ugh.
six. come already. please.
p.s. i love you
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