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i finally got in touch with my stepmom and dad. i talked to my stepmom for about a 1/2 hour so that was good. i found out my dad had a heat stroke a week ago but he's doing better now but they have just been kind of busy. i'll get to talk to my dad in a couple hours when he wakes up so i'm very excited about that. well my lil' brother daniel had his birthday party and we 7 boys over here all night!!! AHHH!!! hehe. it was good though. i got 'The Phantom of the Opera' soundtrack yesterday so those of you that know me know i'm having a great time listening to that. i'm still obviously having a very hard time with everything that's going on but i'm so sick of being down but that seems all that i can do right now. especially when i'm not with my friends and i'm surrounded with the atmosphere of everything going on while everyone seems to try and act mainly that nothing happened or that they have this sincere grudge of hatefulness. last night was my first night over at my mom's house in about 2 1/2 weeks so that was interesting. my stepdad and i didn't really talk at all and that wasn't because of me he wouldn't talk to me. finally he did and some stuff seemed to get resolved but only time will tell. there are boys all over the floor in the living room surrounding the area i need to go to get my Bible and journal. i should just step on them all. hehe just kidding i'm not mean to them. they are all awesome boys and they love playing with me and enjoy kids so we are definitely good. i'm starting to get really hungry too. maybe i shall try to make the mission of getting over the kids.