Sad

well today i was all excited because i get to start my first blog and mon. & tues. community groups went amazing then just now my stepdad asked me out to lunch with him and my sister's boyfriend. so we went to panera bread and almost the whole meal was silent which i thought was weird and then he goes has your mom called you lately i was like yeah she called me last night i thought that was awkward and he gave me this funny look. i said 'oook'. he said 'well uncle bill passed away.' (rude way to tell it.) i was shocked he just got out of the hospital last night from his heart attack i thought he was doing good. i couldn't hold anything in i broke down right there at the round 3 person table in panera bread in front of almost a whole restaurant full of people. my mind was wandering what do i say? is my aunt ok? are my sisters ok? how come this happened? i felt torn apart and it all had to happen while i was still here in houston again. once again i was not home in buffalo, new york when something went wrong. but then i talked to my cousin and found out that last night he was crying out to God and gave his life to him and kept praying and he was in agonizing pain last night. which made me grateful to know that he is Heaven with my God and at peace. but i'm still hurting but i know my God will take care of that overtime. so i'm just praying now for healing for me and the rest of my relatives.