GOD IS SO AWESOME!!! God is so extravagantly amazing and nothing else should come before him or in the way of him and us. well the rest of today went pretty ok after i finished crying about my uncle. my sister came over and we started to watch pirates of the carribean until she had to leave. then i started to finish lauren and i's collage that was exciting. then i had dinner with suzanne and steve. steve's so great he really cares. then i went to community group and it was all girls: jessica, lien, shannon, christy, sue, and me so that was pretty cool i was surrounded by all my Godly women friends and we had an awesome discussion and it just helped me focus on things that i should be changing on in my prayer life. well the funeral home is being quite aggravating about the date for when we wanted to have it done so i don't know quite yet when i will be leaving to go back to buffalo. it's so hard to take it all in so today i've just been trying to take my mind off of it. then also one of my friends called today and we got to talking about God and i was having a difficult time explaining things and it was just i don't know blah. i wish he would just understand. sometimes i just can't seem to find the right words for the right person. you know? tomorrow is my first counseling meeting with my stepdad and i'm anticipating it to be a lot of pain but you never know maybe it will go great. i do have to give him credit about today though when he told me about my uncle he did give me the option of staying up there longer and seemed very concerned i was just angry with what happened and i guess i wish he told me differently but i don't think he meant anything rudely by it so that's good. i just really need some guidance from God right now in so many areas of my life and i'm just getting carried away with my thoughts and mixing them all up so i don't know exactly where i'm heading with them all.