yo me siento incómodo.

it's time to write. i've been so beyond busy lately. i've been sick and feeling awful; finally feeling a lot better but occasionally i get that headache and i still have that choking cough thing whatever it is; i've been working a lot and then i had to flee from the hurricane because it was headed for us and while i fled i got allergic to something and there's no telling what it is because it happened at my aunt's house that i've been to plenty of times, i've never been allergic to anything except for milk when i was little like a midget but really all i was was a small child and then it went away and then i loved milk and now i hate the taste and don't drink it (just some background info on me hehe.) and also my sister's boyfriend was allergic to something there to so i was looking forward to the mini vacation type thing but it didn't happen and that's ok i slept a lot and i need sleep and now i'm back and i've been working everyday except for sunday. that's my new schedule because the one day host quit and her last day was monday and then the other one will be leaving soon to go to dallas with a job he got with dell so soon it will be just me. but anywho my new schedule for now is monday-friday am and saturday pm. so that is definitely going to wear me out. but it won't be to bad i just have to get back into the groove of it. but starting next saturday i will be training one of the other hosts to basically 'run the show' she needs to learn how to take charge and stop goofing off and she'll be good i've already trained her with everything else so she just needs to start acting like she is in charge so that i can have off saturday nights. which that'll be nice. i prefer to only work monday-friday days. recientemente you me siento tan fuera de lugar. i had fun at community group on monday it was rusty and debbie, richard and susie, matthew, me. we all just hung out and watched the football game. the kansas city chiefs and denver broncos. and i learned a lot about football. i understood nothing about it until monday so that was kind of interesting. we were all supposed to cheer for the chiefs though because that is susie's team but they ended up losing. but it was nice to relax and hang out with them. i love them all so much. and then last night after a lot of commotion and running all around lauren and i ate at china bear with rusty and debbie. that was really good. i'm really glad that we went. i felt so bad and i still do we were almost an hour late. for reasons i wish not say but they were nothing we could prevent. that was definitely a relief to be there. then we went to surprise michael because he thought lauren was getting back today and not yesterday. well we kept calling him and he was not answering so we drove by his house to see if he was there and try to figure out what was going on. well he wasn't home so we decided that we would stall at barnes and noble until we could get a hold of him. well we get a call from lauren's mom saying that somebody came by the house and by the time she got to the door she saw michael brown pulling out of the driveway. so we finally get in touch with him and lauren made up this story that it was her neighbors and stuff and it was all good. well finally he calls me and i get to go over there to bring him his 'surprise' lauren had me pick up from the house for him. so we hide the car down the street and i get out and give him this book she had gotten for him and he was all frustrated and you could tell he wanted to go back in the house and go to bed so i'm pushing this conversation so bad and then finally lauren talks and it scared me even because i was expecting her to just walk up and she obviously didn't do that. but he was surprised and it was all good. so that was frustrating at first but it turned out awesome. that was one of our best ones of surprising someone. if you know us you know we like to surprise people. well anywho this weekend i talked to marvin a few times and that was so awesome. i love just talking to him and not thinking that the relationship will go further or not. it's just us at that moment. that's so awesome to not have to expect something from a guy or have them expect something from you or even if that relationship doesn't go anywehre you know that you will still be awesome friends in the end and that's just fine with you. he's awesome. he makes me feel really important and that he's taking time away to talk and have any kind of relationship with me. so he got back from austin yesterday and he had a great time this weekend hanging out at his grandparents house that he never gets to see. so that's good. he enjoyed himself and was able to take that break from stuff that was needed. and we are supposed to hopefully do something tonight together depending on what's going on with his parents plans and stuff. i'm very excited about that one. i'm feeling great right now, and that's all i have to say. tengo mariposas en el estómago que piensa acerca de esta noche.