my heart has skipped a beat. did that really just happen. i can't believe what was done. what type of lies were to be told. and that fact that 'nothing' was going on the past few days. i can't stand it. not only am i having words stuffed into me but now they are going in the way that is known to hurt me the most. as upset as i am i will not let it hurt me this time. the game is still being played on one side but what don't you get when i said that's it. no more. all that i've heard is now believed. that i am the more mature. i wanted so badly not to believe that. but it was all just proven to be true. i don't get it. i took one of the largest and hardest steps and you have to trash that too. i'm giving it my all. why won't you. when i said that that's it. i meant it. you said it too. you said no more of this. but kept it going. i thought you may have stopped. but all lessons have been learned in that past and i was giving it one more shot from afar but now i know that it was a mistake on my behalf once again. i hope you learn things quickly. or even at all.
and yes it obviously does function at a whole until someone breaks the cycle.
i am. i will.
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