FECHAMOS!

i'm sitting here with drewseph. yay! today sarah and i also went makeup shopping for her and i got some stuff to cheer up my awesome friend nicole! i miss her. and she was having a pretty bad day. aww. i ruv her. then we had our dessert. which i couldn't finished no could she so we saved them for mark and drew. then i came home. and now drew is with me!!!! and i'm happy. and smiling. i've smiled the most i have in a long time these past few days. finally! tomorrow is a long day that i'm not looking forward to at all. i will be able to call drew though if i need someone. yay! i'm so glad that i have him there. ugh. i'm not ready. not yet. i don't think i would ever be but it's just to much. but i'm afraid if i were to wait any longer i would lose it. i'm holding something back right now. and it's hard. and no ryan it's not ok to!!! ugh. jerk.