he's mine. all mine!

well it was a crazy night. boys, boys and more boys. if you were to go down there right now you would see about 7 or 8 boys just all over the place. oh so crazy. i got to watch the sunrise with the most amazing guy. he's so awesome. he loves God. he treats me well. very well. he is understanding and caring even when i'm not. he's helping me do things that i absolutely need to do and am struggling with. as i sat there in his arms and cried this morning because tomorrow i face it, i didn't want to leave. i want him to be there with me tomorrow. even though i know i need to do this on my own and then have him be there afterwards. i love how he says comments underneath his breath so quiet that i only catch a few words and have no idea what it is about and it keeps me pondering. i love how he laughs and says thanks. i enjoy seeing him try and act like he's going to make a decision when he is just as indecisive as i am. i love how as nervous as i am. i just don't care. i want him to know. i want him to see what is really going on. no lies. no cover-ups. maybe that is why i told so much. i like how he lies and tells me i am beautiful. i like drew. i really really do.