he's there. i was there. and amazingly today i left because of the bugs. i was annoyed too but that's not why. not today. i'm really proud of myself. i did what was right. of course it did influence me. those words. they did pierce but i somehow did not let it get to me. mr. magnetic poetry thinks i made a good decision. that made me feel good. actually it made me feel great. i needed that approval that i was doing what was best. it felt right but i still was having my doubts and hurting. well right now i'm excited. drew is coming over! yay! and if he gets here early enough... i think we'll go down there. just to kind of get him. you know. whatever. ok well i got to go.