he's always right. he knows me way to well. ugh. jerk.

finally here to update. today was pretty good. i'm still enjoying it. just struggling with feelings alot. lets see here well yesterday was a very long day. but it was ok. i just had to deal with austin who was driving me absolutely insane. and someone else. ugh. anyways austin was just in a bad mood because his boss clarence put him in one and i was the only one that really knew what was going on and i can understand but he didn't need to take it out on me like that. it just drives me insane sometimes. michael made me feel a lot better though. he kept me laughing. and bradley. oh bradley. he's so awesome. i think i just take my job way to serious but i can't help it. i can't stop. it just comes. when i am one minute off quote i start to freak out. when guest complain, even if they don't have a reason to be, i start freaking out. i just have to take a minute and breathe sometimes. no one else seems to care as much except a few people. it just sucks. whatever. anyways. well after a very long day at work a group of us were supposed to go to hard rock cafe to eat. well yeah that didn't work out and it ended up being just desi and i so we drove out there because online it says that they are open until 1. so when we got there at about 1150ish the lady said that the kitchen was closed but that we could sit at the bar until 12. we were like oh ok. so we decided we were going to go and eat and ihop and see drew! well on the way out we checked their hours and it said until 1 but we did not feel like dealing with it! ugh! I WANTED MY DESSERT!! any one who has hung out with me this past week knows that i do. well any ways we went to ihop and saw drew and it was good. i felt bad he didn't get off until 3.30 and then had to be at church at 7.30. so he ended up not sleeping at all. i feel awful. well kaleo was awesome. i really liked bill's message today. alot. afterwards we all went over to red robin. yay! probably the last time though. ugh. but it was good. drew is ugh. he's so nice. but a jerk. yeah. whatever. now i'm home. and my sisters are back. i'm wishing they weren't yet. not to be rude. i just wanted to be able to spend more time with just my mom. oh well. maybe mom and i can just go out. daniel's birthday is tomorrow! THE KIDS COME HOME TOMORROW!!! i'm so excited. ugh. FINALLY! i miss them beyond belief. i hate that man. and i feel sorry everyday. i want to be the one there instead. i don't want to have to have them deal with him or anything else about it. ugh. then tuesday i hang out with just about everyone but i'm chilling with the hartely kids!!!! heck yes. and later ryan!!!!!! and NICOLE!! YAY! i'm excited. and then wednesday...