what do i do? there are to many decisions to make. i hate decisions. they scare me or something. whatever that means. i'm hurting. once again. what else is new. this is why i'm nervous. is because of the thoughts i release are what gets you into what i'm thinking when you can't read me... today the kids left once again. they will be gone until daniel turns 11 in a week and half. ugh. then it's off to my buffalo. to face something harder than the next breath. it seems. even though it is nowhere close. i feel so ugh. just blah i guess. but yet abandoned. hurt. afraid. loved. happy. beyond sad. who knows. as i drew today and played a beat i felt so relaxed but so overwhelmed. one of these days i'm going to go. go nowhere. just go. to wherever i end up. turning whichever way feels right. that sounds so wierd. i'm cold. no actually i'm freezing. this bracelet is getting in the way. 'you're killing me smalls' haha. i can't get that out of my head. i love that movie so much. it makes me smile. i'm actually looking forward to tomorrow. even though it will be so completely stressful but yet i will be able to relax. yay. mis pensamientos me agobian. i'm loving my best friend nicole. she's so great. ah! how awesome. she makes me smile every day. yay. i'm so glad that we are friends and that i can feel comfortably telling her anything and everything. literally. i'm o sore. why are thoughts such a scary thing. ¿por qué quiero mantener todos los tan muy lejos?
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