forthoseofyouthatactuallysitehereandtakethetimetofigureoutwheretheonewordstopsandthenextonebeginsiwouldlikeforyoutoknowthatit'snotbecausei'mdoingthisbecausei'mfeelinglazybutithinkthatwhateverihavetosayinhereisforthoseofyouthatactuallywouldliketotakethetimetoreadthis.i'mfeelingkindofupanddowntoday.notknowingwhattothinkorwheretogoorwhattodo.justhere.justblah.whateverthough.i'mmissingryanso.it'swierdhimnotbeinghereandmehavingtobethereverydaywithnoonetocalmmedownwhenthingspissmeoff.liketodayihadnowordstosayandallididwasbroodwithangerwhichwassowrongbuthatwasallthaticouldo.youknowandthinkingaboutmydadwasdrivingmeinsane.ihadnoonetosayanythingtobecauseihateshowingweaknessandwithryaniknowicanshowitandhewouldnotthinkthatiwasbeingweakbutthatiwastrustingandthatmeanssomuchmorethanwhatever.newyorkwillbeheresoonenough.i'mdreadingthesenextcoupleofweeksasiwaitonityetiknowtheywillflybyasiftimewasnothereandthenagaini'mdreadingactuallybeingthereandhavingtofacetherealityandhavingtohavethatconversationwithhimandhavinghimputhisarmaroundmeagainandkissmyforeheadashetellsmeitwillbealrightyetiknowitwon'tanditakesuchcomfortinhisvoiceandwordsalthoughitismainlyhisfault.heknewheshouldhavestopped.whydidn'the.heknewwhatwastocomeofitifhedidn'tandyetheinsistedtobethestubbornmanthatheisandtocontinuetodoit.notcaringsomuchastowhatiwouldthinkormysistersormystepmom.why.idonotknowyetiknowthatheprobablyhurtsoverthissomuchbutican'tseemtothinkstraightlyonit.andasireadfromozielallicouldthinkandfeelwasthesamethinghomeishomeyetihavetwohomesandwhichoneisreallymyhomeordoireallyevenhaveahomeforthatmatterorisitasihaveasummerandholidyhouseandarestoftheyearhouse.i'mhurtingmorethannormallatelyandican'tseemtostopit.howridiculousami.
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