from lunchbox to 6 feet something...

i'm feeling really good today. first time in awhile. it's really nice. i've been having ok days lately but today is good. and i'm looking forward to it. i can't wait until ryan gets up and our day starts. i'm a little upset because nicole is not feeling well and so she's not coming anymore. but nick is. so that will be fun. lauren and i may go shopping later. so yay! getting stuff started for the wedding! i'm so excited. it's a year and 4 days away!!! oh my gosh! ryan and i have had the best conversations lately and it is really making me happy and excited. he's so awesome. last night he definitely made me smile when i needed it. i'm so happy that we have become best friends. oh man. best friend's best friend. quizá esto es el derecho uno. el último. i'm freaking out but i think whatever needs to happen will happen. and that God will do what is best. and i can't wait to find out what that is. ahhh... it's been a month now and i'm so proud and happy. i'm hoping i can keep this going. i know i can with the help of the few people that know. and i'm hungry today.