lets see if i can actually do this this time.
someone once told me that sometimes i seem depressed or sad when i write. not that it offended me by any means. i do realize that. i say how i feel. i know how it must come across. which i realize at times that is the case. yet it has only made me more aware of it. so half the time lately i've wanted a more upbeat post. i've realized i'm just not ready for one yet. so to those of you that may read this and think i'm depressed. no i'm not. i'm having the time of my life yet i'm struggling some and this is what i want to get off right now and i'll write upbeat later. once again i really don't mind what was said and please i hope you don't feel that i was saying it or changing something because i felt bad about it. i don't want it to come across in that manner.
so much is going on. i'm getting overwhelmed. yeah what else is new. the fact that it's now been 3months. it's such crap. i am so exhausted all the time lately. you wrist is almost completely healed. please stop 'milking' this as you said you should. it's time to grow up. your 30. it's killing my body physically. and now with cinco de mayo, mother's day, and graduations - memorial day weekend. i'm not getting a long and well needed and deserved break for another month and the hours will be insane as they have been the past few months. the attitude is irritating. he's beyond great and i just can't comprehend how he deals with you at times. you and i are some of the greatest friends yet i couldn't do all he does.
no connection.
it's all just blah.
one day without. i feel as if i did something wrong yet i know i have not and it's okay that i did not. but it's just the way the cultural has made it out to be.
i'm exhausted. i'll finish later.
someone once told me that sometimes i seem depressed or sad when i write. not that it offended me by any means. i do realize that. i say how i feel. i know how it must come across. which i realize at times that is the case. yet it has only made me more aware of it. so half the time lately i've wanted a more upbeat post. i've realized i'm just not ready for one yet. so to those of you that may read this and think i'm depressed. no i'm not. i'm having the time of my life yet i'm struggling some and this is what i want to get off right now and i'll write upbeat later. once again i really don't mind what was said and please i hope you don't feel that i was saying it or changing something because i felt bad about it. i don't want it to come across in that manner.
so much is going on. i'm getting overwhelmed. yeah what else is new. the fact that it's now been 3months. it's such crap. i am so exhausted all the time lately. you wrist is almost completely healed. please stop 'milking' this as you said you should. it's time to grow up. your 30. it's killing my body physically. and now with cinco de mayo, mother's day, and graduations - memorial day weekend. i'm not getting a long and well needed and deserved break for another month and the hours will be insane as they have been the past few months. the attitude is irritating. he's beyond great and i just can't comprehend how he deals with you at times. you and i are some of the greatest friends yet i couldn't do all he does.
no connection.
it's all just blah.
one day without. i feel as if i did something wrong yet i know i have not and it's okay that i did not. but it's just the way the cultural has made it out to be.
i'm exhausted. i'll finish later.
