words.

who is this creature you speak of?
just follow your instinct.
i feel the same. i could not lose this friendship.
you'll be there right?
can we talk tomorrow?
again.
i miss you.
i'm so proud of you.
well someone's got to break it.
it's okay it's the cold hard truth.
it has to be told that way.
i told you she was going to die.
you're killing me smalls.
because her boyfriend made her.
i just want to go home.
a top hat?
you're always cold.
having a rough day?
where's your shirt?
thank-you.
at least we can't lose today.
i want candy.

i'm.

i'm stressed. i'm tired. i'm confused. i'm upset. i'm happy. i'm calm. i'm worried. i'm afraid. i'm stirred. i'm struck. i'm proud. i'm doing everything except for sleeping. the one thing i should be doing.

in pain.

it's been a while.
the yankees won tonight.
my body is tense even though that was my hope tonight was to not be. maybe because i've been so tense lately. maybe it is just time to have that surgery. to stop worrying about everything else.
i'm going home with my mom, and my siblings august 10-17. i will be back for my birthday but will still be able to celebrate with my creature. it's our 20th. even though she will have been it for 5 months. it's still our tradition that we plan on keeping.
been to a lot of astros games this year. it's a little different. as i sit and watch them while richard is dosing off and on. suz and matthew are at the game in club level ll i think it's 223 or 224 or something. the phillies right fielder today jumped completely in the air so much that he was sideways to catch a foul ball and landing in the stands. that's what baseball is all about. is having the love of the game enough to do whatever it takes to get that one out because that is all that you can focus on at that moment. to bad there are not more players like him.
my hair is short.
i do enjoy it quite a bit.
my shoulder gets tired styling it.
it's how i want it.
i've found another amazing friend. i can't wait to get to know them better and see them more.
i'm worn from the party yesterday. i am having lunch with my best friend who i have not been able to get together with in forever due to so many things. i can't wait. there will be tears and laughter. so much that is needed to catch up on.
my neck is killing me. my shoulder feels as if a boulder slammed it into a brick wall and then stabbed me with 3 metal poles and left them there.
i'm off to lie down.